Day 40: D-day has finally arrived.

This was taken from "Give me Forty Days" (Freeda Bowers) 

Today we have finally reached the 40th day of the devotional. 

Last night, I had so much trouble sleeping. 

Was it because I had two cups of coffee yesterday, one for morning tea, and one for mid afternoon tea?

I don't know.. coz I didn't sleep all day- 

Went to sewing class yesterday. 

Tbh, I was really cranky all afternoon, throwing a tantrum for no apparent reason. 

You'd reckon that at the final stretch, it would get easier. But it was truly miserable and distressing for me coz I was snapping at the sewing instructor for things which I do not normally get fixated or throw tantrums for. 

So this morning, I ended up doing my morning required 40 mins of prayer with the Lord at 3ish in the morning. 

I went to bed at 11pm- but by 3am, I still couldn't fall asleep. So I decided to just journal the 40 mins and get it over and done with, and was done by 4am. 

After that, I finally managed to fall asleep, and I didn't wake up till 7am ish. I still needed my sleep. 

The 40th Day devotional this round is much more intense, as I took my journalling more seriously. I copied scriptures, memorized scriptures, sang scriptures, and literally followed the 40 mins worship to the letter. There are many early days where I did the prayer morning, short prayer in the afternoon, and at night. 

For this round, I paused on watching Bridgerton Season 4, because I knew emotionally it would interfere with my 40 days of prayer. (and anyways, Bridgerton will be on Netflix for the next 365 days, so there is no rush). 

I paused on sewing practice at home (because sewing practice can take up many hours) even though i had just bought a new Brother Extra Tough sewing machine earlier in February. 

My perspective: 

I feel that this second round of 40 Days Devotional is much more challenging than the first time when I finished it in July 2024 and on Day 39, I received the results for the HRDF accreditation as a qualified trainer. 

This time I: 
- have more work related needs related to school longevity and income, and dept compliance.  
- salvation for a loved friend who has now gone missing (no contact, no idea what he is doing, as he is hiding from everyone), though I technically know where he is. 

I have been praying for him non stop for the last 40 days since Day 1 of this journey, and I am still waiting for the outcome from the Lord's side.  
- emotional expectations for my mother, especially in the last 3 months, where her behaviour has changed tremendously as an aging parent in her mid 70s. 
 

So I challenge the Lord: 

- What answers are  you letting me see today on the 40th Day, for as you say, "How more scriptural could it be, Give me 40 days"

- What answers will you reveal to be, for as you say, "No greatest need is not too great for Me"?

- I have read  your Word, and pray. and I will become larger than the need.
I am seeking to hear your voice, for as you say, "For as their God, I am their choice". 
What will you say to me?

- What needs of mine will you give to me, as you said, "Because to Me, they have bowed their knee"?