In 2026, I didn't write any yearly goals.

In Nov and Dec 2026: I was bleeding for five weeks. About one week before heading to South Korea, the bleeding finally stopped...

So when I returned to Malaysia by the beginning of January 2026..  

 I then started my 40 days of prayer in 2026, with the intention of wanting a word from the Lord. 

It started with praying for the needs of 6 people. 

Halfway thru it, I received a vision about CC- when I was driving my car home from Pavilion Bukit Jalil. 

Three quarter ways through it, I received a download that this will be my final year of red packets. - on the very first day of lunar new year. 

By the time I finished my 40 days - on 25th of Feb 2026- I was only praying for two people.

My mother and CC only. 

By Lunar New Year, and at the end of the 40 days, I was receiving word after word about marriage. 

Instead- for the month of February, March, and April: all I received was dreams, visions, and word about marriage. 

It reminded me about this scripture from Joel 2:28 (NIV) 
And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. 

Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams, 

your young men will see visions." 

But I had Dreams. Visions and Word. 

By July 2026: which is today, I realised that- I didn't write any goals for this year. 

Instead, every month, I had what is "mini tasks". 

January: I started my 40 days of prayers. 
February: As I was finishing my 40 days of prayers- the lord gave me a vision, and the word about marriage. 
March: The Lord gave me a dream- about motherhood- He led me to find my journal that would point out the identity of my husband. and then he finally gave me a vision of me walking down the aisle. 
Then I got my licence to go top roping at Camp 5 Eco City. 
April: He stopped me from rope climbing- and started healing my womb. 
May: The block from rope climbing continued for the rest of May. 
Patrick got a leg injury . 

Waterfall Abseiling Block: 
I wanted to go water fall abseiling. Every time I wanted to pay the RM150 for the waterfall, I first posed the question to my trusty AI app- Gemini. I asked him: is it a good idea to go waterfall abseiling in Gopeng in May?
It told me that Gopeng was flooding. 
Then I started staining. So I took it as a sign that my period was coming (it was... but not for another 11 days) 

by 16th of May 2026, we arrived in Gopeng: no rain, no flood, no one died. no car accidents. 
So I asked Gemini again: should I go waterfall abseiling?
It said NO. 
So I asked him for a good reason: It said: since your period has been missing for 65 days- it is not good to go into the water. 
I rolled my eyes- I was still so tempted to pay the money for the abseiling. but then i decided no- i will still pull out. 

Then my period came: 
on 17th of May: the day of the waterfall abseiling... 
I woke up with the worst cramps- that I needed Actifast 500

So I told the Lord: you're really playing a trick on me- isn't it?

My period ended on 22-5-2026: for five days. In exactly 70 days. 

Because I was bleeding for five weeks in Nov and dec 2025, I thought it would be the same in May. 

So i bought bags of sanitary pads... which I ended up just chucking in the shelf.

The Awal Muharram test: 

Then Evonne asked me to go climbing at Camp 5 for Awal Muharram: 
Initially, i thought the block had ended, but a few days later, I found out that she had a lung infection.
She said she was feeling better after being prescribed antibiotics.- and would go the next day. 

So again, I asked Gemini: Should I go?

Gemini's answer: NO. 

As a mate, if you were to go- you would be enabling her addiction to bouldering- when she should be resting at home. Go find something else to do. 

Which I did. 

June then came. 
On 2- June, Patrick then texted me: Let's go rope climbing!

At this juncture- I finally realised the door was finally opened. For two whole months- the Lord had closed the door for me to go rope climbing. 
I tried every avenue. Asked everyone. No one was free. 
Then climbers got injured. I got sick. Others were sick. 

At the beginning of June, I felt the Lord wanting me to go to a bridal shop... 

So I wrote in my journal: 
 Lord I will not go if you wont go with me. I'm too chicken to go inside- and I won't go alone.

If you won't give me a sign, I am not going. 

So the first week came- nothing. 

Second week came- nothing. 

Third week came- nothing. 

Fourth week came-- finally... a sign started repeating itself . 

1 Samuel 14: 6-12: 

"Jonathan said to his young armor-bearer, 'Come, let’s go over to the outpost of those uncircumcised men. Perhaps the Lord will act in our behalf. Nothing can hinder the Lord from saving, whether by many or by few.'

'Do all that you have in mind,' his armor-bearer said. 'Go ahead; I am with you heart and soul.'

"Jonathan said, 'Come then; we will cross over toward the men and let them see us. If they say to us, “Wait there until we come to you,” we will stay where we are and not go up to them. But if they say, “Come up to us,” we will climb up, because that will be our sign that the Lord has delivered them into our hands.'

So both of them showed themselves to the Philistine outpost. And the Philistines said, 'Look! The Hebrews are crawling out of the holes they were hiding in.' The men of the outpost shouted to Jonathan and his armor-bearer, 'Come up to us and we’ll teach you a lesson. 

So Jonathan said to his armor-bearer, 'Climb up after me; the Lord has given them into the hand of Israel.'"

That scripture kept playing in my mind all week. By the end of the week, I finally realised the Lord wanted me to go to the bridal shop....

To be continued.