Launching me into a new season of marriage preparation

Today is five days since I finished my 40 Day devotional. 

After the leathercrafting session on Saturday, I've had some time to think about what Amos 3:3 really meant. 

Today was a really hard day for me emotionally. 

It was hard because I wanted the Lord to show me something new, and give me assurance of whether my prayers will come to pass- because He had not made anything visible to me in the physical. 

So I spent the whole day controlling my emotions, and was witholding my tears at work, until I finally went into the safety of my own car, that I finally let the tears flow. I was crying non stop. 

I was writing in my journal honestly- because there is nothing to hide. There is nothing new under the sun. 

I was feeling a lot of pain- both for me. and for Case. I asked the Lord, do you even feel the pain that he is feeling? Do you even see what is happening?

and then I went to take a nap because I was exhausted and overwhelmed by my crying. 

As I prepared to go bouldering, I was feeling really solemn. 

The Lord's way of speaking sometimes doesn't really use words. 

But He quickens the spirit of a person- and even in my solemnity, I wasn't blind to what the Lord was showing. 

As I was walking on my way to grab some dinner, I walked past a screen at Pav BJ. 

it was two HK singers, George Lam and Sally Yeh who were going to perform in a concert. I mostly ignored the ad, but the word that I saw from my peripheral vision was "We are One".  

To an ordinary person, the words would have no meaning.. but because I was meditating on Amos 3:3, I knew the Lord was showing me something (though I was choosing to ignore it). 
I know it was the Lord speaking, because in the bible, there is a scripture that quotes: 
"Genesis 2:24 — “the two shall become one flesh." 

The context being: George Lam and Sally Yeh have been married to each other for 29 years.

To distract myself, I decided to watch some videos on youtube... 

That's when I finally realised that the Lord had been preparing me for marriage all this while... which I will talk about in the next post.