What Are You?

Jan 3rd, 1:46am:

Do you only look for me when you have something in need,

or is that JUST what I am to you?

WHAT AM I really to you?

Did you mean what you say, when you were being truely nice to me all those times, or was that all for a show?

I have feelings too you know.

I have needs and desires as well.

BUT I am not blind.

Just because I did not mention it openly to you, it did not mean that I do not see what you are doing.

Is that truely WHAT YOU ARE?

Or are you going to tell me again what you have always told me, "That it was all a mistake"?

Or should I be mistaken in what I say here?

I don't know.

You tell me. Is that really what you are?



Jan 4th: 23:17hours.

I am in a pissy mood. I am going to put this entry back to the top.

If you are wondering, I am not bi, nor am I les. I am hetereosexual.

I am still pissed off.

I don't even know why you asked what it is you could have done that could have annoyed me (and without knowing why).

Do I seem like that kind of person who take things for a jest?
What answer would you expect me to give?

That I do not care about the things that happens?
That a bit of appreciation would be appreciated?
That words are just merely words, and nothing but words?

I had been honest in what I said, but the more I did, the less you were. And the more vague the answer that was given me.

You tell me what should I do, as you are doing now.

I really do not know.