Day 21- Post Blackie's death

Day 21- I haven't checked the burial site since I removed the white towel. I've soaked and cleaned the towel with detergent, but most of the soiling from covering the burial site couldn't be removed. 

I've left it to dry on the line, but due to the typhoon season, it hasn't had a chance to dry the last few days. 

I didn't check the burial site, as I don't see any point now that the gases have deflated and there is no smell.

Mentally, unfortunately I ve had a hard time sleeping as the memories of the cats keep coming back, esp at night, when I'm trying to sleep. 

I keep saying to myself, I hope the rain isn't too hard for you, meaning raining on the burial site, to Blackie. Tho logically, I know he's already dead.