Journaling: Sitting with my emotions

Today I felt like journaling.

Today, I found out things that happened about four weeks ago. Or maybe it could have happened recently. I don't know. 

But to find a curveball that we mirrored each other in silence? 

 yes, I was spiralling... And I was jealous... Yes, I admit that's how I felt. And I still feel it. It isnt going away.

But I'm just going to sit with it and let it pass. Because I finally know my feelings is  not going to hurt or destroy me. 

Because I'm not scared of my own feelings any more.

I'm letting it move thru me without trying to fix it, or fix you. 

What am I trying to say? 

Because my love was from an open heart.

I didn't love to get something.

I loved because that’s who I am when my heart is open.

And now, I'm strong enough to love him without losing myself. 

It came from seeing the real him.

And now, it comes from finally seeing the real me, too.

And when you truly see someone—you don’t just unsee them because they scared you, or ran.

I still love him, because somewhere beneath all the fear, I know he loved me back.

Even when he was scared, silent and messy. 

Date: 31-07-25 (23:50)